I can't make you change

I sit here looking at you, wishing that you could read my mind. I glance around to see if anyone else feels the way I do. Am I the only one that feels so helpless and invisible when you are around? I can't make you change.
The next time we meet, I stare at you from my spot in the world, so much lower than your heightened importance. You control my life, my direction and my speed through life. You have slowed me down to where I feel I will never pick up from this stopping point on a road to nowhere. I stare at you, wishing you could read my mind, knowing that I can't make you change.
I see you again, and things are always the same. I'm beginning to get stronger, not worried of what those around me will think. I quietly ask you, mumbling under my breath..."Please...please....just let me go". I begin to pray that you will let me go on my way, let me be, and release me from the power you have over my existence.
Again, we meet. You shine upon me with the brightest spark I have seen all day, but somehow the shine dulls as you put me in my place again. I stop dead in my tracks, and I beg you.."Please...Please just let me go".
I feel courageous today as I approach your reddened face. Maybe today is the day where I forget the world around me and I tell you how I feel. No more secret prayers or whispers under my breath. You come closer and the anger builds in my throat. I begin to beg.."Please..Please.." but my prayers are answered before my mouth can yell the words, "Damn You". The light turns green and I merrily go on my way.
I hate red-lights.